no sleep for me

so my friends I believe it is safe to say that sleep has left me behind and it wont be coming back for me tonight I’m almost positive of that seeing as it is 6:30 am and my eyes have yet to shut and my mind has yet to rest. So for tonight I have [...]

I’ve lost what I loved

I can’t look at you, I can’t let my eyes see what has destroyed me. I don’t want to see what I am walking away from, what has hurt me so much. Betrayed me. I thought for the longest time that you could be the one stable thing in my life. but guess what? you [...]

I want things to be how they were before “her”

I just want things to be back to how they once were. back when I felt like I was the only girl in your world, back when I could look in to your eyes and see just how much you wanted me. back when we wanted the same things, when you didn’t want her, much [...]

things are ok now… I guess

so today she called back and I guess she just needed space and everything is ok now. I’m still not sure what happened and I didn’t really ask… I have a hard time expressing my thoughts and feelings into spoken words to people that matter to me, b/c I always end up saying something that [...]