once a cheater, always a cheater

So here’s the story, my boyfriend of almost 5 yrs, well ex-boyfriend cheated on me with my supposed  best friend.  They started out just talking on the phone, this was hidden from me of course, then i guess they got closer and when I started to find out about them talking too much and started [...]

I’ve lost what I loved

I can’t look at you, I can’t let my eyes see what has destroyed me. I don’t want to see what I am walking away from, what has hurt me so much. Betrayed me. I thought for the longest time that you could be the one stable thing in my life. but guess what? you [...]

I want things to be how they were before “her”

I just want things to be back to how they once were. back when I felt like I was the only girl in your world, back when I could look in to your eyes and see just how much you wanted me. back when we wanted the same things, when you didn’t want her, much [...]

I think I’m crazy

I got in a fight w/ my boyfriend last night we came to the conclusion that I am most likely bipolar. or just fucking nuts, either way we almost had make up sex, but I wanted to see if he would initiate. so I’m not initiating sex and I’ll just see how long it takes [...]

First Times

You know what I absolutely love? When you first get a new boyfriend/girlfriend, or both, and you’re both so nervous around each other. I love the first time that we touch, kiss, when I get butterflies in my stomach and my whole body feels activated… The first time that we kiss, so gently and sweet, [...]