i suck at life

Im freaking out… I’m a fuck up I can’t think straight
im a liar
im selfish
or am i? why can’t I just be happy? why is it so damn difficult
i cant make up my mind for anything or anyone
im numb to life and I cant except reality so I create an alternative and just pretend to be [...]

I hate you

I hate you for doing this to me, I talk to myself, I change my mind, I dont really eat nor sleep, I can’t think right, I can’t function right. I wanna puke so bad when I see you I wish I could really puke b/c I would puke on you. I feel like chocolate [...]

no sleep for me

so my friends I believe it is safe to say that sleep has left me behind and it wont be coming back for me tonight I’m almost positive of that seeing as it is 6:30 am and my eyes have yet to shut and my mind has yet to rest. So for tonight I have [...]

once a cheater, always a cheater

So here’s the story, my boyfriend of almost 5 yrs, well ex-boyfriend cheated on me with my supposed  best friend.  They started out just talking on the phone, this was hidden from me of course, then i guess they got closer and when I started to find out about them talking too much and started [...]

I’ve lost what I loved

I can’t look at you, I can’t let my eyes see what has destroyed me. I don’t want to see what I am walking away from, what has hurt me so much. Betrayed me. I thought for the longest time that you could be the one stable thing in my life. but guess what? you [...]

I want things to be how they were before “her”

I just want things to be back to how they once were. back when I felt like I was the only girl in your world, back when I could look in to your eyes and see just how much you wanted me. back when we wanted the same things, when you didn’t want her, much [...]

A decision of a lifetime

I am at the age where I am supposed to decide what I want to do for a career. I could go in some many different ways that could determine my future, I know that I don’t want to do something generic, I want to live a crazy fun and interesting life. I don’t want [...]

awkward

So I work at a restaurant that a lot of the same people come in several times a week. Anyways, so there is this guy who comes in and he really creeps me out, he’s like in his 30s and acts really weird, plus he’s always telling me about his nights at the titty bar, [...]

Hottest Girl EVER!! to me

To me the hottest girl ever is Megan Fox, you know the super babe from Transformers? Well anyways if I could be w/ any woman in the world, it would be her. She is sheer perfection, from her beautiful eyes to her flat super sexy stomach… She’s so hot! Anyways, just another thought, I just [...]

When is sexuality not going to be shunned upon?

I was watching a show on vh1 on sexual revolution and it just got me thinking, when is sexuality going to be ok and not wrong?
When are we going to mature? I mean why is it that boobs can’t be shown on tv here in the us but it can in every other country? I [...]