I can’t look at you, I can’t let my eyes see what has destroyed me. I don’t want to see what I am walking away from, what has hurt me so much. Betrayed me. I thought for the longest time that you could be the one stable thing in my life. but guess what? you aren’t nothing is, all I have is myself, I’m the only thing in this world that I can depend on. I hate this more than anything, I wanna hold you and be with you, be completely yours and you be all mine. but I don’t think it’s going to end that way is it? we’re too different, you’ve changed, you put her before us, before everything… fuck my feelings, thoughts, fuck my whole world just so you can feel fine at the end of the night when you go to sleep, but most of all fuck her, I hate her for this, I hate you for this. I never want to talk to her again. I’m not putting myself in this situation again. I set myself up for hurt and pain when I gave you so much freedom, I thought I could trust you, that you would never like someone else I would be the only one. I thought you didn’t even like talking to other girls. Lies. You had to of known it would come to this, or you wouldn’t of hidden it. I think you’ve definitely been the best thing that’s ever happened to be, you’ve taught me so much. you’ve been awesome before all this, you’ve helped me so much. I also think you’ve been the worst thing that has ever happened to me for making me feel this way, for not always being there for me when I’ve need you the most and for not really trying to understand me. But most of all I hate you for talking to her and liking her. I’ve lost you, you’re not the same I’m holding on, in hopes of you coming back because even though you’re here in person, you’re not the you I feel in love with. so what ever it is bothering you lose it and then we’ll figure out us. but right now I think you need to be alone, with out me so you can see what you’ve lost or what you can gain. figure out what’s important to you…
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